i don't know if i want to live anymore, i do and do and give and give, i am doing everything in my power to do what i know are the right things, yet here i have almost everybody telling me how horrible of a person i am, my own parents saying they can't trust me when my sister lies to them about her drinking problem, i haven't done one thing wrong in my life unless you count obeying your parents every word wrong, for the past six years i have told them the truth about my life, but yet here they suggest i never tell the truth, everyone gives me dirty looks, people are always yelling at me, and its like the world is angry with me, i feel so alone and scared, i feel i don't have a friend in the world, i'm tired of crying, i am tired of sacrificing i am so damn tired of crying nightly, i am sick of getting no sleep, and i am just down right done with having no one respect me enough to even see me as a human being, i'm not a doormate, i am flesh and blood like everyone else, i bleed when cut, i cry when broken, i smile when happy, i am a living thing for gods sake

just for once i'd really like it if someone in my life would just be happy with who i am