Good bye and farewell, it will be years before i return, lies went too far, lives destroyed by someones joke, an innocent man's future destroyed, if you have contact with me through im's, then it may be the only way you contact me from not on, no more emails, please let go of me, the police have gotten involved, this sight has only be good for one thing, storage of art, and the destruction of my life

Somethings have got me thinking about life....


What would you do to change the world if this was your last day?




Songs that brought this on...
If Everyone Cared and If Today Was Your Last Day by Nickleback

We Shall Be Free and Change by Garth Brooks

forget commenting on the songs, its the message in this ok....


Live each day as its your last day one Earth, and live each day not for yourself, change whats wrong with this world, don't tell me you can't, every day a single person changes the entire world, its to what degree people notice it that makes its news, the actions of a small group gets more accomplished then that of a large one, its always been that way, its hows its always worked in then past and still does to day, so don't go preaching to me, but to those who need it, don't waste your time here on this great planet, take the leap, take risks, stop being scared, forget the things that make you doubt yourself, each day is a precious gift, don't be afraid to share this gift by making others happy, let everyone know you care, let them all know they are important to you, even if its the least little bit, let them know you care, cause we all know what it feels likw to not be loved, so spread it around, and think....


So I ask you again my friends, and I challenge you to ask others, Hell, share it with people you don't even know... but...

What would you do to change the world if this was your last day?

i don't know if i want to live anymore, i do and do and give and give, i am doing everything in my power to do what i know are the right things, yet here i have almost everybody telling me how horrible of a person i am, my own parents saying they can't trust me when my sister lies to them about her drinking problem, i haven't done one thing wrong in my life unless you count obeying your parents every word wrong, for the past six years i have told them the truth about my life, but yet here they suggest i never tell the truth, everyone gives me dirty looks, people are always yelling at me, and its like the world is angry with me, i feel so alone and scared, i feel i don't have a friend in the world, i'm tired of crying, i am tired of sacrificing i am so damn tired of crying nightly, i am sick of getting no sleep, and i am just down right done with having no one respect me enough to even see me as a human being, i'm not a doormate, i am flesh and blood like everyone else, i bleed when cut, i cry when broken, i smile when happy, i am a living thing for gods sake

just for once i'd really like it if someone in my life would just be happy with who i am

What element is at your core?

.:<FIRE>:.
{ } You have a short temper
{x} You often act on your emotions without thinking first
{ } You are very competitive
{ } You like to play with fire
{ } You are not a strong swimmer or you can't swim at all
{ } You prefer warm weather over cold weather
{ } You often lose control over yourself
{ } You can be quite reckless
{ } You sometimes hurt people without realizing it
{x} People have often called you insane
{ } You believe power gives you the right to do whatever you please
{ } You prefer hot and/or spicy food over cold and/or crisp foods
{ } You think burning someone at the stake should still be an execution style
{ } Summer time is your favorite season
{ } You think war is a necessary part of life
{ } You believe that you have to be strong to survive in this world
{x} You wish dragons were real
{x} Your strongest emotion is passion
{x} You love explosions and guns
{ } You laugh when you see something burning or wish you could burn someone you hate or dislike

FIRE Total = 5


.:<WATER>:.
{ } You have a calm, laid-back personality
{ } You like to go to the beach
{ } You rarely get angry
{x} When you do get angry, you know how to control it
{ } You think before you act
{x} You are good at breaking up fights
{x} You are a good swimmer
{ } You like the rain
{x} You can stay calm in stressful situations
{x} You are very generous
{x} You prefer the cold over hot temperatures
{ } You would love a life at sea
{x} Your favorite time of the year is winter
{x} You like eating fish
{x} People say you are gentle rather then strong
{ } You enjoy the sound of a babbling brook
{x} Your favorite animal is aquatic
{ } You enjoy being at a beach
{ } You believe all bounty is provided by the sea
{ } You are seen as a relaxed and a go with the flow type of person

WATER Total = 10


.:<EARTH>:.
{x} You are physically strong
{x} You have a close connection with nature
{x} You don't mind getting dirty
{x} You form strong opinions on issues that concern you
{x} You could easily survive in the wild
{x} You care about the environment
{ } You can easily focus on your work without getting distracted
{ } You rarely get depressed
{ } You aren't afraid of anything
{ } You prefer to have a strict set of rules
{x} You feel at peace when you are away from civilization
{ } You'd rather have a nice salad then a juicy steak
{x} You understand animals just as if they were human
{x} You feel lost in a big city
{ } Your favorite season is Spring
{ } You are a generally neutral person
{x} You prefer the mountains and forest over any other place to live
{ } You are en excellent climber
{ } You love animals more then people
{x} You control your physical attributes well

EARTH Total = 11


.:<AIR>:.
{ } You have a free spirit
{ } You hate rules
{ } You prefer to be out in the open rather than in small, enclosed spaces
{x} You hate to be restrained
{ } You are very independent and outgoing
{x} You are quite intelligent
{ } You tend to be impatient
{x} You are easily distracted
{x} You can sometimes be hyperactive and/or annoying
{x} You wish you could fly
{x} You love birds
{ } Your favorite season is fall
{x} You love to move fast
{ } You love to watch the birds fly
{ } Freedom is your most valuable prize
{ } You feel at home in the open feels or atop a windy hill
{x} You still have your childhood innocence
{ } You love the sound of laughter
{ } You enjoy being up high
{ } You feel you have to live where there's clear skies

AIR Total = 8


.: <DARKNESS>:.
{ } You spend most of your time alone
{ } You prefer nighttime over daytime
{ } You like creepy things
{ } You like to play tricks on people
{ } Black is your favorite color
{ } You prefer the villains over the heroes in movies, TV shows, videogames, etc
{ } You don't talk much
{ } You are atheist
{ } You don't mind watching scary movies
{ } You love to break the rules
{ } You hide a lot from your friends and family
{ } You have more black pieces of clothing then anything else
{ } Your favorite time of the year is Halloween
{ } You often find yourself avoiding crowds
{ } You find yourself depressed more often then happy
{x} You lock yourself in your room for hours at a time
{ } You think the police are just a waste
{ } You have found yourself daydreaming of dying
{ } You worship a figure considered evil
{ } You enjoy screamo

DARKNESS Total = 1


.:<LIGHT>:.
{x} You are very polite
{ } You are spiritual
{x} When someone is in trouble, you never hesitate to help them
{ } You believe everything you see or hear
{ } You are afraid of the dark
{x} You hate violence
{x} You hope for world peace
{x} You are generally a happy person
{ } Everyone loves to be around you
{ } You always follow the rules
{x} You sometimes stop to smell to roses
{ } You enjoy watching a butterfly
{x} You have been called a Saint before
{x} You'd rather not be thanked for doing a good deed
{x} You've sacrificed for others
{x} You often find yourself inspired to do good things
{x} You look up at the sun and smile easily
{x} To you Love is the ultimate power
{x} Your favorite time of the year are those that bring people together such as Christmas and Valentines day and Easter
{ } You wear more bright colors then dark colors

LIGHT Total = 13

the element(s) with the single highest score is your element(s)

Your Personal Element is _LIGHT_

I'll be honest, i thought when I started this test I'd end up with Earth or Water, and to think this is MY test, Told ya I'd make my own version

Quiz #1

.:FIRE:.
[ ] You have a short temper.
[ ] You often act on your emotions without thinking first.
[x] You are very competitive.
[x] You like to play with fire.
[ ] You are not a strong swimmer or you can't swim at all.
[ ] You prefer warm weather over cold weather.
[ ] You often lose control over yourself.
[ ] You can be quite reckless.
[x] You sometimes hurt people without realizing it.
[x] People have often called you insane.
Total: 4


.:WATER:.
[ ] You have a calm, laid-back personality.
[x] You like to go to the beach.
[x] You rarely get angry.
[x] When you do get angry, you know how to control it.
[x] You think before you act.
[x] You are good at breaking up fights.
[x] You are a good swimmer.
[ ] You like the rain.
[x] You can stay calm in stressful situations.
[x] You are very generous.
Total: 8


.:EARTH:.
[x] You are physically strong.
[x] You have a close connection with nature.
[x] You don't mind getting dirty.
[x] You form strong opinions on issues that concern you.
[x] You could easily survive in the wild.
[x] You care about the environment.
[x] You can easily focus on your work without getting distracted.
[ ] You rarely get depressed.
[x] You aren't afraid of anything.
[ ] You prefer to have a strict set of rules.
Total: 8


.:AIR:.
[x] You have a free spirit.
[ ] You hate rules.
[ ] You prefer to be out in the open rather than in small, enclosed
spaces.
[x] You hate to be restrained.
[ ] You are very independent and outgoing.
[x] You are quite intelligent.
[ ] You tend to be impatient.
[x] You are easily distracted.
[x] You can sometimes be hyperactive and/or annoying.
[x] You wish you could fly.
Total: 6


.: DARKNESS:.
[ ] You spend most of your time alone.
[ ] You prefer nighttime over daytime.
[ ] You like creepy things.
[ ] You like to play tricks on people.
[ ] Black is your favorite color.
[ ] You prefer the villains over the heroes in movies, TV shows, videogames, etc.
[ ] You don't talk much.
[ ] You are atheist.
[x] You don't mind watching scary movies.
[ ] You love to break the rules.
Total: 1


.:LIGHT:.
[x] You are very polite.
[x] You are spiritual.
[x] When someone is in trouble, you never hesitate to help them.
[ ] You believe everything you see or hear.
[ ] You are afraid of the dark.
[ ] You hate violence.
[x] You hope for world peace.
[x] You are generally a happy person.
[x] Everyone loves to be around you.
[ ] You always follow the rules.
Total: 6

50% Earth and 50% Water
XD Hey that makes mud lol


Quiz #2

[ ] smoked.
[ ] consumed alcohol.
[ ] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
[ ] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
[ ] kissed someone of the same sex.
[ ] had sex.
[ ] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[ ] bought porn.
[ ] tried drugs.

TOTAL: 1

[ ] taken painkillers.
[ ] taken someone else's prescription medicine.
[x] lied to your parents.
[x] lied to a friend.
[ ] snuck out of the house.
[ ] done something illegal.
[x] felt hurt.
[x] hurt someone.
[x] wished someone to die.
[ ] seen someone die.

TOTAL: 5

[ ] missed curfew.
[ ] stayed out all night.
[ ] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[ ] been to a therapist.
[x] received a ticket
[ ] been to rehab
[ ] dyed your hair.
[x] been in an accident.
[ ] been to a club.
[ ] been to a bar

TOTAL: 2

[ ] been to a wild party.
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade.
[ ] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
[ ] had a spring break in Florida
[ ] sniffed anything
[ ] wore black nail polish
[ ] wore arm bands.
[ ] wore t-shirts with band names.
[ ] listened to rap.
[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD.

TOTAL: 0

[ ] dressed gothic.
[ ] dressed girly.
[ ] dressed punk.
[ ] dressed grunge.
[ ] stole something.
[ ] been too drunk to remember anything.
[ ] blacked out.
[ ] fainted.
[ ] had a crush on a neighbor.

TOTAL: 0

[x] had a crush on a friend.
[ ] been to a concert.
[ ] dry-humped someone.
[ ] been called a slut.
[ ] called someone a slut.
[ ] installed speakers in your car.
[ ] broken a mirror.
[ ] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[ ] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL: 0

[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
[x] seen an R-rated movie in theater.
[ ] cruised the mall.
[ ] skipped school.
[x] had surgery (it was that or lose my arm!)
[x] had an injury.
[x] gone to court.
[ ] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
[ ] caught something on fire.
[ ] lied about your age.
[ ] run your mom/dad over with a car.

TOTAL: 4

[ ] owned/rented an apartment/house.
[ ] broke the law in the police's presence.
[ ] made out with someone who had a gf/bf
[ ] got in trouble with the police.
[x] talked to a stranger.
[x] hugged a stranger (ok so sue me! i was on a bus at disney world and the person was crying cause their family was mad at them for some reason)
[ ] kissed a stranger.
[ ] rode in the car with a stranger.
[x] been harassed.
[x] been verbally harassed.

TOTAL: 4

[ ] met face-to-face with someone you met online.
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight.
[x] been to a fair.
[ ] been called a bad influence.
[ ] drank and drove.
[ ] prank-called someone.
[ ] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
[ ] cheated on a test.

TOTAL: 4

Overall Total: 20 - just right at goody goody limit


If You Have Less Than 10.. write [I'm a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10.. write [I'm still a goody goody]
If You Have more Than 20..write [I'm average]
If You Have More Than 30..write [I'm a bad kid]
If You have more than 40..write [I'm a very bad influence]
If You Have more than 50..write [I'm a horrible person]
If You Have more than 60..write [I should be in jail]
If You Have more than 70..Write [I should be dead]

ok so I admit its not the best, but its pretty good, I'll make my own version soon