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About Me Member Deviant of Many Talents DracoJustin23/Male/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 3 Years
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feeling....alone, broken, and unwanted...

Sun Jun 21, 2009, 3:16 AM
  • Mood: Enjoying The Show
  • Listening to: Music
  • Reading: Mobile Suit Gundam
  • Watching: Discovery Channel
  • Playing: Star Wars: Empire At War: Forces Of Corruption
  • Eating: whatever i can find
  • Drinking: Sprite
i don't know if i want to live anymore, i do and do and give and give, i am doing everything in my power to do what i know are the right things, yet here i have almost everybody telling me how horrible of a person i am, my own parents saying they can't trust me when my sister lies to them about her drinking problem, i haven't done one thing wrong in my life unless you count obeying your parents every word wrong, for the past six years i have told them the truth about my life, but yet here they suggest i never tell the truth, everyone gives me dirty looks, people are always yelling at me, and its like the world is angry with me, i feel so alone and scared, i feel i don't have a friend in the world, i'm tired of crying, i am tired of sacrificing i am so damn tired of crying nightly, i am sick of getting no sleep, and i am just down right done with having no one respect me enough to even see me as a human being, i'm not a doormate, i am flesh and blood like everyone else, i bleed when cut, i cry when broken, i smile when happy, i am a living thing for gods sake

just for once i'd really like it if someone in my life would just be happy with who i am

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  • Current Residence: Virginia, United States of America
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: XXL
  • Interests: anime, technology, animals, Dragonball Z
  • Favourite band or musician: Creed, Scott Stapp, Garth Brooks, Guns N' Roses, Hinder, Shinedown
  • Favourite genre of music: All genres
  • Favourite poet or writer: Edger Allen Poe
  • Operating System: Vista
  • MP3 player of choice: PSP
  • Favourite game: Dragonball Z Boubaki Tenkaichi 3
  • Favourite gaming platform: Playstation 2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Anime: Vegeta
  • Personal Quote: Too stubbern to die, too persistent to quit.

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Hey come back to the chatroom. Autumns gone.
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i did, but it was empty, you know what.... to solve all the damn fighting, its best if i just disappear, everyones mad at me for someone elses lies, you think i am retarted and autumn it confused and pissed off, and katelyn's lying to me, i don't even have to do anything and some how i am the bad guy, again, another reason i left the chats

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i left the chats for good

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justiiiiin.....why am i banned from DracosDen???????? T^T
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cause i closed it, along with all of my chats when i left the chatrooms

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T^T but now how am i supposed to talk to u?
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hmmm IM's, notes, email, need a name more?

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I am going to make something clear to people who think I lie or trace with my art, i spent 15 years in 9 classes to get that gently precise, so what if it was in elementary and high school and I don't do tons of it, I've still got the skills, more proof its real, the paper I use is sketch pad paper, anyone that uses that knows how thick and hard that stuff is, its not see through! it is 100% impossible to trace with that shit and why would I spend a month on a single picture if i am tracing, i am going in and spending tons of time on every single detail, i've done the very thing with film, tv images (not stills), no image at all, and then some, i've end done portraits of family with them sitting still, i can't put those up cause they are hanging on my grandparents walls, and a peregrine falcon held still just long enough that i got the start of the back layer of it, finished it from memory, tell me how the hell do trace without an image? and so some of my art is sketches of others work, but its cause i loved it that much, its not like i am getting money from it, its just cause i wanted to see how i'd do compared to the original, i still think i am not that good and i see constant flaws in all my work, and so the back layer rims and lines are thick, i had to start somewhere, i press hard on the paper, and again CAN'T SEE THROUGH THE PAPER! i can pull out so much proof to prove its all done by hand, no tracing, that it would make your head spin, i spend so much freaking time with this hobby that my parents take my pads just to get me to do chores to get them back, my own family has asked me not to draw this summer so i can actually hold a full time job, i bust my ass with this stuff, you guys haven't even seen 10% of my work

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hay wanna chat...i'm in powersword....go ahead.
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